BLIND ITEM: "GAY DENIAL" This black male celebrity hates being gay. He refuses to identify with being gay despite having sex with men. His explanation, "Yes, I sleep with men and I prefer men but I am not gay because I am the top." According to friends, he has entertained thoughts of suicide and at one time he consulted a therapist, trying to get "cured," of his gay urges, to no avail. Friends also say, he complains that straight porn doesn't arouse him at all but gay porn turns him on completely. Friends say, one night they surprised him with a female groupie. She left the room quickly, allegedly, our celebrity could not get aroused to have sex with her. At the top of his game, he had his pick of the finest men on the planet. Male models, famous jocks, etc., but since he fell off, he's upset that he can no longer pull the cream of the crop, instead, he's left to frolic with "low rent" call boys. He was once in a relationship but after his career hit the skids, his boyfriend bolted. Our celebrity is suffering from major depression because of his stalled career and his sexuality. He has become belligerent and unapproachable which is not helping his career. There is no hint of femininity in his appearance and mannerisms. He is a step away from has been status. Gossip Wrap-Up Guess: This one is too easy. Busta Rhymes. And if Maya 'nots' him, I'm still calling him gay (Busta has been dipping in Toronto!)